finally i am back to normal self. with the help of little massage, my body feel abit lighter. it turns out angin yg buat badan lemau. that malas mode is over for now :) i guess our body need some pinch from time to time yeah?

i finally have some friends at school. look whos more excited going to school now? gheeee....u see, some of the kids were sent in with their nanny. but nanny dont normally chit chat. they will come, finish and off as fast as possible. but after a few round of school, i met more mommies too. dapatla i borak2 & share experience. its good to be around adults sometimes.

anyway, i pick up reading to fill that empty hobby slot i was talking recently :) the first book is an islamic book. it was a gift we never bother to peek the content. im sure the person who gave it to us have good intention. i hope i can finish them & with that i can understand islam deeper and be better muslimah. insyaAllah.

really in lazy mode nowadays. im tired too. feel like i've been running in a marathon. im counting on great & beautiful body to get moving doing housework like cooking, washing, ironing, scrubing toilet (ok this one havent really done it :D hubby did, must let him have the credit) it really help tho when people told me that i look slimmer nowadays :) thank you very much! blessing in disguise.

also been spending too much these days. with hubby's business not picking up, this is extremely not good. hello lady, u r not working, remember? pls stop buying things ok! this is what happen when u go to a shopping mall twice on a weekdays when there is no crowd  & u have all shops for yourself. and the convinient of debit card where hubby will give the amount every month for grocery shopping (read: grocey), i'll be happily swiping away. next thing u know, ur bank balance is in critical number. starting this week, i will go to class early before shops open, & leave the building with blink of eyes.

allright, will get hobby to distract all these sort of negative halo. maybe attend craft class like making bunga telur that my friend conducted. or find some money so that i can continue buying :)

now come to me good vibes!

ps: miss u already!

luqman has stopped bf. he just decided he does not want it, i guess. well it was all started a few weeks ago when he was having a fever, the time he refused everything. soon after that he slowly rejected bf. he will just scream out loud whenever i put him in bf position & wanting to freed himself out. well i would still offer him whenever i feel hes ready for milk, but i guess this boy has mind on his own. he choose what he want.

now im slowly trying to let him finish stockpile of frozen milk i have. but the problem with frozen milk, they have some smell & sour-ish taste, which is can be easily rejected at one taste. and now am slowly adding formula into his diet. because i read up that babies at this age still need at least 20oz of milk a day.

i was still expressing them for the last couple of weeks but stop doing so starting this week. how do i feel? its kinda emotional for me. the moment where u feel alot closer when hes wanting milk from you or when you just watch his cute mouth suckle up are all in the past. but i guess there comes a time for me when im just done. i agreed that nothing every turns out exactly as you think it will. i have reduced calories intake to shutdown milk production, slowly.  

extract from the babble.com; stopping milk production also involves a hormonal shift. When you're nursing you have a regular influx of oxytocin (the "bonding" or "love" hormone) and prolactin (the "nesting" hormone). The balance of these hormones can make mothers feel calm, spaced out, bonded, content, and/or sleepy. Together they can have an antidepressant effect, though not everyone feels this.

nobody tells me that breastfeeding is pain in the begining and  now weaning is hurt.

latero. must get ready now. hubby picking us up after prayer today.

from time to time, i will share my experience becoming 'housed' wife. this time is about dinner. in my house, preparing dinner is a must. hubby will come home and expect something on the table. well not actually 'on the table', is rather something i have planned to cook for dinner because cooking while taking care of small baby all by yourself is one tough thing ok. normally i'll wait hubby to come home & so that he will jaga this little monster, or better, read him some book & tuck him to bed, while waiting for me to 'bersilat' in the kitchen. sometimes if my baby is supergoodboy he will doze off right after magrib. thats easy sbb just nice for me to prepare dinner.

so, you wives who cook :))) ...do you always run out of ideas what to cook. mine is worse. i will go to pasar tani every weekend but always buy the same thing again & again. pathetic sgt. and end up scratching my head with what to cook when i open the fridge with the same ingredients. but responsibility is still a responsibility right. so without excitement, i will just make do with anything i saw. the results? one day...the chicken i fried suddently decided to go againts me & popped hot oil right on my face. yes. a face. above my eyelid to be exact. from then on, my relationship with cooking turned sour. or was it a wake up call? hmm maybe...

now, started this week,  i tried to reconcile this relationship with preparing rough guideline (skema tak skema la kan. guideline la sgt) still working on recipe2 yang easy & i know how to. must get four at least, but two will do la kot at the moment. sbb kena ulang2 for week1, week2, week3 & week4 every month.

monday is pasta nite. it can be bolognese, creamy seafood, olio, or just fried spagetti with clams.

tuesday is noodle soup. so far i only have two, cod with bihun or fishball with kuey tiaw. but i think nak add cantonese fried kuey tiaw with beef & ginger in the list

wednesday is bread base. sandwiches (this one can be prepared in many ways) pizza, taco. serve them with cut fruits

thursday is grill or roast or bake, garlic & pepper chicken, roast beef, bake fish with garden herbs. serve them with mashed potaoes.

friday is nasi & lauk :))). yeah orang melayu mana boleh tinggal nasi kan

saturday..still looking & thinking. i will cook sometimes. but we normally will be out on saturday. or makan free kat wedding hehe will see how it goes.

sunday. im off. hubby laugh out loud when he see the word OFF masa i handed out the list to him for approval. then he said. dont worry we go to my parents & eat my mom's cooking. hmm sedap betul dia cakap. mau aku kena sembelih kalau every sunday hubby will go there to eat. menantu malas betul!

im running in week 1 menu now. so far so good. no complain.  yeah i only buy ingredient for a few days of menu on the list. i have reduced my trip to pasartani too sbb i still goes out sending my son to school & can get fresh things easily on the way back.

lunch? i dont cook lunch nowadays. i just put aside one potion of last nite cooking, refridgerate them & microwave them for my lunch.

next time i share about reduced expenses i have noticed after two months of no-maid-who-buatkejetakbetul-and-happily-wasting-everything. seriously. a huge different. tapi takde la sampai i boleh beli satu loubotin (spelled?) ok maybe boleh klu i kumpul la kot...

here some images for some of you who wondering how classes for baby was conducted; this is 45 minutes of 'play' class. probably 45 minutes is already long enough for small babies :)

the package consist play, music & art. at the moment, luqman only attended play & music. music class is conducted in room setup. luqman will only start art class when hes old enough to properly play with paint.

photos credit, kahlilphotography

walking in circle

working on balance & coordination

more play

kicking the ball - social skill (sharing)

catching free bubbles - build concentration

catching big bubbles given to him

bumpy ride (muka dah penat)

surprise, surprise under the parachute (babies love this. they normally would sit still under and wondering whats going on)

dancing with gymbo (end of session)

oh my. my body is aching. i was brave enough to do grocery shopping all by myself right after luqman's class. well, it wasnt huge grocery shopping. i just bought a few stuff for baby's food like butternutsquash, sweet potato, carrot, fruits and afew other stuff. because i was pushing my baby stroller, not enough hands for a trolley. i just put everything into my grocery bag and carry it on my shoulder, the result? my shoulder was in pain. till today.

my rambling is now more domesticated. cooking, school & child well being. yeah boring huh? well this is me at the moment, doing full time mommy & wife job. the only party i attended nowadays is kid birthday party :( yup sometimes, i can be lost too in these world u know. but i guess i just need to focus on things i should do at the moment.

like today we have birthday party for some rich kid. the party is so grand that they have to do it in the grand ballroom. hes luqman's school friend, & the mom invited personally, so i guess i have to drag my feet. mingle with the riches make me sick actually. sick of envy hehe. i drool over their chanel handbag & shoes all the time :))

but again...hey who said u cannot watch movie if u have baby? just leave him to the babysitter or grandparents and u all set. but to tell you the truth, at the moment i feel more comfortable to do something that involve my son too! now i understand why tun bring her baby everywhere she go last time, even when her baby crying lung out that make us cancel the karaoke hehe. i want to share with you what my second sister (shes so happy when i decided to leave my work for full time mom) advised me...the ultimate challenge for parents now is;

membesarkan anak yang mempunyai jiwa yang penuh. bila anak2 mempunyai jiwa yang penuh, mereka mereka tidak akan terjebak dgn benda2 tak elok seperti dadah, mabuk & rosak akhlak. bila kita tengok mereka2 yang rosak akhlak sebenarnya jiwa mereka kosong. mereka mencari perhatian di luar.

i asked her, macamane nak mendapat jiwa yang penuh?

and she answered, kasih sayang dan perhatian yang sepenuhnye. bukan kasih sayang kebendaan atau kasih sayang maid. mereka membesar sekali sahaja.

and i think. yeah i have met a person who live in this big city tapi tidak terjebak dgn budaya2 remaja yang suka berparti, drug, mabuk & huha sana sini, because he told me he dont need to. (in this case because he is the only child la kan)....so i guess dia mempunyai jiwa yang penuh :)))

and i admit i didnt have 'jiwa yang penuh' when i was growing up. i was an hardcore rebel. i do stuff that my parents forbid. and yes i have big family. but getting older, i understand well :) but the hard way la. im peaceful now.

things i currently hooked up;

arnotts (spelled?) cream custard delicious filled biscuit; sweet, crunchy & sedap

garlic pepper roasted chicken; in my quest for healthy eating habit, my oven has been working hard lately. still working on making the perfect juicy garlic pepper chicken. i told my hubby, if i ever in confinement again, pls cook this for me. i dont mind eating them everyday

making chicken stock & stock it up in the freezer. other than using them for luqman's food, i use it for my cooking. not to mention how easy to do it :) thanks to anne. if want the recipe go to bidadariterbang

the latest glamour magazine. million thanks to hubby who never fail to surprise me with the new issue even when i have forgotten about buying them long time ago!

to spray on that kiwikleen starch spray before ironing. spray them generously on the shirt, leave one day to dry & walla...ironing is never this easy! (tapi my hands dah habis melecur sana sini dek kerana iron jahanam yang panas itew)

owh i need more money pls. 

we visited bang & olufsen boutique the other day and guess what, we met with the most expensive tv. reganye 200k. this tv set is supercun! it is made to order. built with love. smart tv ala2 cerdik gitu. wow best gile kalau rumah i ada that tv. then the reality hit back. that tv set will look so out of place if it is to be in my house hehe plus i can pay our hse mortgage or buy another car with that money or better, go holidays! wise :))). just eyecandy, sure...

anyway, after a week of break, luqman started his class again. quite tiring day jugalah for me with the journey, the play & usung anak ke sana sini. but something i've noticed, my boy is one cheerful baby everytime balik skool. the minute we reach home, he will settle by playing on his own. he did not disturb me or tailgate me everywhere :)) once satisfied playing, he'll have his nap. if its normal day (stay at home day) he will be abit kan-cheong if see me lift up my butt to go somewhere, let say, to the kitchen or to the toilet, he will just throw whatever hes holding and crawl fast behind me until he get to grab my both legs & standing with both hands tight so that i cant move, wanting to be carried.  

alhamdullilah, i dah berani driving with my little buddy. he just sit quietly at the back seat & just look around or look at me driving. untill he fall asleep. sometimes he play with the toy i 'made' for him. oleh kerana dia tak berapa heran dgn toy2 baby yg cantik lagi colorful itew, atas tunjuk ajar the lady from the skool, i made him some amusement toy like beans in the bottle. and replace them often. dan lokasi sekolah yg agak terkawal pun membantu proses membina keyakinan diri itu :)) we snap some pictures while luqman having his play at school. will show them soon.

alhamdulillah, luqman's temperature has back to normal. his teething pain is at its peak. his appetite hasnt come back. he still refuse direct feeding. i hope this will be over soon. hes getting slimmer tho. should i worry?

this is luqman after recover from fever. poor little boy was under the hot sun just because his mommy decided to follow the whole family for my youngest sister's graduation. i know, i should not. u see, i promised my mother to take her jalan2 when she come, tapi dah dua kali i couldnt make it sbb the first time i was in confinement, obviously...second anak sakit. i bite my lips when they go jalan2 themselves. so when everything dah ok, i sempat ikut dorang pegi convocation ceremony right before they were leaving back to kampung.

sorry, the outfit was not appropriate for that event. i was in a hurry & just grab anything i could.

wearing black tregging from robinsons, long sleeve shirt from bangsar flea market, fendi sunglasses, tudung from ampang park, aldo summer wedges, carrying gucci bag yang nowadays dah jadi diaper bag & baby at one hand.

my family called me 'makcik jual jamu' that day.

im taking a few days off. my son is down with fever for a few days already. with sleep deprived & one two many outing lately (open house, open house, open house), i just too tired. my son is also taking a week break from gymbo. not to mention my aching limb walking in boots. yeah. nice shoes always hurt but it make me look sexy :)

u see, i digged too much of jane aldrige blog (sea of shoes) lately & it make me digging my old shoes box :)) wait a minute. i shall call it vintage. i say, i have this ankle boots for almost 10 years already & very surprised to see it almost still new when i reopened them. taking about hand made shoes. quality that is. so i proudly put my vintage shoes & walking tall it them. i'll snap some photos when i have regenerated my energy. or maybe some of u have already seen me wearing it those days during uni time. the different now & then, i never feel any lenguh2 those days when stomping my boots everywhere, now baru pakai satu dua kali dah lenguh kaki. talk about berat badan yg harus ditampung. sigh.