oh my. my body is aching. i was brave enough to do grocery shopping all by myself right after luqman's class. well, it wasnt huge grocery shopping. i just bought a few stuff for baby's food like butternutsquash, sweet potato, carrot, fruits and afew other stuff. because i was pushing my baby stroller, not enough hands for a trolley. i just put everything into my grocery bag and carry it on my shoulder, the result? my shoulder was in pain. till today.

my rambling is now more domesticated. cooking, school & child well being. yeah boring huh? well this is me at the moment, doing full time mommy & wife job. the only party i attended nowadays is kid birthday party :( yup sometimes, i can be lost too in these world u know. but i guess i just need to focus on things i should do at the moment.

like today we have birthday party for some rich kid. the party is so grand that they have to do it in the grand ballroom. hes luqman's school friend, & the mom invited personally, so i guess i have to drag my feet. mingle with the riches make me sick actually. sick of envy hehe. i drool over their chanel handbag & shoes all the time :))

but again...hey who said u cannot watch movie if u have baby? just leave him to the babysitter or grandparents and u all set. but to tell you the truth, at the moment i feel more comfortable to do something that involve my son too! now i understand why tun bring her baby everywhere she go last time, even when her baby crying lung out that make us cancel the karaoke hehe. i want to share with you what my second sister (shes so happy when i decided to leave my work for full time mom) advised me...the ultimate challenge for parents now is;

membesarkan anak yang mempunyai jiwa yang penuh. bila anak2 mempunyai jiwa yang penuh, mereka mereka tidak akan terjebak dgn benda2 tak elok seperti dadah, mabuk & rosak akhlak. bila kita tengok mereka2 yang rosak akhlak sebenarnya jiwa mereka kosong. mereka mencari perhatian di luar.

i asked her, macamane nak mendapat jiwa yang penuh?

and she answered, kasih sayang dan perhatian yang sepenuhnye. bukan kasih sayang kebendaan atau kasih sayang maid. mereka membesar sekali sahaja.

and i think. yeah i have met a person who live in this big city tapi tidak terjebak dgn budaya2 remaja yang suka berparti, drug, mabuk & huha sana sini, because he told me he dont need to. (in this case because he is the only child la kan)....so i guess dia mempunyai jiwa yang penuh :)))

and i admit i didnt have 'jiwa yang penuh' when i was growing up. i was an hardcore rebel. i do stuff that my parents forbid. and yes i have big family. but getting older, i understand well :) but the hard way la. im peaceful now.