luqman has stopped bf. he just decided he does not want it, i guess. well it was all started a few weeks ago when he was having a fever, the time he refused everything. soon after that he slowly rejected bf. he will just scream out loud whenever i put him in bf position & wanting to freed himself out. well i would still offer him whenever i feel hes ready for milk, but i guess this boy has mind on his own. he choose what he want.

now im slowly trying to let him finish stockpile of frozen milk i have. but the problem with frozen milk, they have some smell & sour-ish taste, which is can be easily rejected at one taste. and now am slowly adding formula into his diet. because i read up that babies at this age still need at least 20oz of milk a day.

i was still expressing them for the last couple of weeks but stop doing so starting this week. how do i feel? its kinda emotional for me. the moment where u feel alot closer when hes wanting milk from you or when you just watch his cute mouth suckle up are all in the past. but i guess there comes a time for me when im just done. i agreed that nothing every turns out exactly as you think it will. i have reduced calories intake to shutdown milk production, slowly.  

extract from the babble.com; stopping milk production also involves a hormonal shift. When you're nursing you have a regular influx of oxytocin (the "bonding" or "love" hormone) and prolactin (the "nesting" hormone). The balance of these hormones can make mothers feel calm, spaced out, bonded, content, and/or sleepy. Together they can have an antidepressant effect, though not everyone feels this.

nobody tells me that breastfeeding is pain in the begining and  now weaning is hurt.

latero. must get ready now. hubby picking us up after prayer today.